have you ever had the problem of more than two responsibilities + 3 or 4 pieces of information in your head rendering you extremely anxious and dysfunctional until you can either sort them out irl or come up with copes for them
i decided to play autism factory game and then remembered i had things to worry about and now my head is exploding and i cant get anything done
>just sleep and you'll get it sorted in the morning
>it either gets worse when you wake up or you forget about it and it gets much worse later
spiraling process that is not only a mind sapping vortex but also only takes 1 or 2 steps to get into
the best i can manage is making a to-do list and then fucking it up later, i feel incredibly incompetent at just being alive. god should have put a round through my skull a while ago. i even managed to fuck up getting out of lebanon, and now i have to wait another year.
aaaahhhhh! how am i going to fit this into the hecking scheduuuuullleeee!!!!! nooooo i have to account for the fact that im a lazy bastard and probably wont get off my ass in this context!!!!!!!!!!!!!!