sick of living, can't live my feelings sincerely anymore. feel ok, feel sad, feel something poetic, feel like an idiot for feeling much at all, get cynical about how silly "feeling poetic" is, fall asleep, forget about it, wake up the next morning, feel nothing, feel nothing, feel disgusted by the fact that i feel nothing, panic and get anxious, the non-existent issue is resolved, i feel good, i feel sad, i feel poetic, i feel like an idiot for feeling much at all, fall asleep, forget about it, wake up the next morning, feel nothing, feel nothing, feel alienated, feel strange, feel invigorated by the novelty of that strangeness, feel abstract, get too caught up in it, feel frantic, feel disillusioned lying in bed sore with a cold sweat, feel ashamed, feel sad, feel like an idiot for having been so ecstatic and hyperactive, feel like an idiot for feeling much at all, go to sleep, have a weird dream, wake up the next morning, feel nothing, feel nothing, feel nothing