i've unintentionally developed, in most of my dreams, a vague awareness that i am in fact dreaming. it'll come and go, but at times i'll shrug off the consequences of a dream thinking "oh, none of this really matters because i'm only dreaming", which will then affect the narrative of the dream. in one dream where i was drowning, i thought "i can't die now right? it's just a dream isn't it?" before waking up. this awareness still feels like it is in and of itself a part of the dream. it does not allow me to transcend the logic of the dream, only expand it. dreams where my steps feel leaded or dreams where i'd like to exit a certain place but can't all remain the same. i've never once had a lucid dream. i have dreams that play on the idea of dreaming itself, where i'll attempt to go to sleep/wake up or go in and out of different dreams or question whether or not prior knowledge or experiences were dreamt up.